j'adore fabulosity

Fabulous is as Fabulous Does

Fabulous is...

Personal. Fabulousness is being unique and individual and not giving two cares about what anyone else thinks or feels about who you are. Being fab is more than just what you where or how you look. It transcends the physical and consists of completeness: not only looking great, but also feeling great and being great. Being fabulous is about swag. Crazy swag. You have it or you don't.

...As Fabulous Does

"A wise girl kisses but doesn't love, listens but doesn't believe, and leaves before she is left" -Marilyn Monroe

A Different Me.

I like to think that I'm a work in progress. Growth. Development. Change. Evolution. These are all things I thought I prided myself on embodying. I thought I was different. I thought I was changing and for the better, but sometimes when standing in the midst of a storm it's hard to see the path right beneath you. Sometimes it takes a few days, months, or even years (and in my case it was years), distance, and greater life perspective to see the error of your ways. I am humbled. I am not the invincible person I so often portray. I got real life confused with this horrible script I chose to live out every single day and somehow the two became indistinguishable. I morphed into an entity that was completely unrepresentative of who I really was, my morals, and values. I ruined some of the best relationships I've ever had, I hurt people I care about, and I hurt people that I didn't even realize cared.

Now I care. I was always told to have no regrets, so I cannot say that I do, but I am sorry. Sorry for the person I was. Sorry for the things I said. Sorry for the way I behaved. Sorry to all those I knowingly and inadvertently hurt. Sorry for who I became. Sorry for all the negative energy I put into the world not only because it will come back on me but because it harmed others. But sorry isn't enough. I apologize. Sincerely and remorsefully apologize, and with an apology must come new actions.

Now it's time for real change.

My outward persona didn't match the person I believed I was on the inside. But now it's high time that they do. But words are just words. I'm done writing, blogging, and talking for now. I'm going to let my actions speak for themselves.


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